EP5: I Was the Queen of Stuckness



This episode looks at the ways we can get stuck and held back from our life’s purpose. Candice talks about her own experience with stuckness, how she transitioned and stepped into her power.

Transcription

Are you ready to tap in to your power within so that your business can reach its truest potential? Hi, I’m Candice Hozza and I help business entrepreneurs access their inner GPS so that their business can grow and thrive. You are here to serve and to create an impact in this world. Welcome to the Intuitive Business Podcast.

Candice Hozza:

Hi, this is Candi and I’m calling myself out on stuckness. So my basic business model is I support people to get out of stuckness and into focus and flow. And I was listening to my podcast to review it about your business has a voice. And I realized the good news is, is I no longer have the identity of being stuck because I didn’t fully and completely share my story of stuckness. And I want to call myself out because I of all people am not perfect. And I used an example of other people, and it’s not really the truth.

Candice Hozza:

I honestly was the queen of stuckness. I went through almost 20 years, maybe even longer, of being stuck in a multitude of things that I wasn’t happy with. I already had talked about not being happy at the university I was at, but there was a lot of years I wasn’t happy with my position. I loved the students. So if any of my students ever out there, you guys are what kept me going, but some of the challenges with the administration, the go here, go there, go up, go down, stop, and nope, now it’s not yours. Like all of that was so taxing because you go full speed ahead. And it’s like pulling the brakes on. And even saying that, my energy was so depleted, but I believe that I couldn’t do anything more. I was always too old, even at 28, I wanted to go back to law school and I was like, well, I’m too old for that.

Candice Hozza:

So one of my girlfriend’s mother is 77 years old and is going to graduate from law school at NYU this May. So we’re never too old. My favorite movie is, or my favorite Netflix right now as Frankie and Grace or Grace and Frankie. And Jane Fonda is 82 years old. We’re never too old, we’re never whatever we’re telling ourselves. So I went through cycles of I’m unhappy in a relationship and I’d get into this big blame game because I didn’t want to take responsibility for the parts that I was causing for things to be broken. So I cannot leave my podcast unattended by your business as a voice and talking about stuckness and not throwing me big time into the mix. I think how I became such an expert at seeing people’s stuckness is by being stuck in so many different venues of my life.

Candice Hozza:

So how did I make changes to get me unstuck from relationship issues and from career issues and financial issues? I’ve always been blessed somehow with finance, meaning it always seemed to work out well, but there was a time in my life that it got really hard. My husband and I have currently been married for 35 years, but he always says with an asterisk, there was an eight year period that we were on and off and on and off. Talk about queen of stuckness. Even in my house and if you haven’t heard it yet, I’m not sure what part of the sequence it’s going to be in, but I’m going to talk about decluttering my home. And I had so much shit in my house, we took out five trucks of stuff. I’ve been in my house 30 years. I had tax forms from 1984.

Candice Hozza:

That’s all a symptom of stuckness and releasing 72 pounds of shredded paper with no file folders. I really was like serious about just pulling the things out that needed to be shredded. That’s a lot of stuff I had at least seven bags of electronics and flip phones to go to Best Buy. That’s being stuck. So for me, I’m starting up purge system to remind myself to stay out of holding on to things that no longer serve me. Everything, every piece of paper, I was just closing my eyes and imagining that I was gaining more health because I still don’t have the perfect body that I want. I believe my body’s perfect and I’m so grateful for the fact that it brings air into my lungs and then I could move and travel. However, there’s some things in my body that need to transition and change, and I need to release the things that are holding me back from getting to where I want to go.

Candice Hozza:

So how did I start transitioning this? I remember, and I think I shared a little bit about the story of me getting thyroid cancer. I wasn’t listening. My guides kept saying, this is no longer the job for you, but how was I going to make money? And I was still in my early fifties, like I needed to be able to do something in life to contribute. So I remember I took a leap of faith and although financially I wasn’t making any money, my husband and I ended up being separated, I believe at that time, I decided to go to a conference and I remember I saw Stevenlinder.com and I decided to take a public speaking. I don’t even know or remember why I thought I wanted to do that. And I don’t even remember what I thought I was going to be able to talk about.

Candice Hozza:

And so I went to this conference and there were some really high performing men and some women that were there. And I was so nervous. There was about 10 people. And some people were really high level attorneys and plastic surgeons and super high performing business owners that made a shit ton of money. And here I was literally disabled at the time. I didn’t have a job. I had just gotten over cancer. I didn’t even really have a vision. Gosh, I can’t even believe I went there. I didn’t even have a vision for what I wanted to do. I did believe that I loved reading the Akashic records and I would do something with it, but I had no clue of how to even formulate my language, but yet I was standing up in front of those guys and some beautiful women making up what I was going to say, because I had no marketing.

Candice Hozza:

But just in tonalities and gestures and how you bring in an audience and how you use your voice to engage people was intriguing to me. And everybody did a great job, but I can remember my lower lip literally quivered. Like I didn’t even know if I was going to be able to stop it. I was so nervous in front of those high performing business people. And I felt kind of like a loser because I didn’t even know where I was going to go, but yet something inside of me leaned into that fear.

Candice Hozza:

I still can’t like right in this moment, I’m actually proud of myself because I just remember how scared I was and how full of uncertainty I was. But yet I leaned into that. What ended up happening after I left that event with those really awesome people that had awesome careers and made beautiful amounts of money and contributed to the world, I ended up leaving there and going to Rhode Island. And when I went to Rhode Island, I happened upon a free ticket. One of my girlfriends, her name was Nicole, or is Nicole, hi, Nicole. She was growing so quickly in her business and I really liked her style. She talked about money mindset at the time and her approach was so soft and warm and welcoming and nurturing. It didn’t feel salesy when she would talk about what she had to offer. And that really turned me on in business because I don’t like personally to feel like I’m being sold or sometimes that might feel a bit manipulative.

Candice Hozza:

And I don’t like that. That’s not who I am. So I like to treat people in business like I like to be treated. So I ended up with this free ticket in Rhode Island. So jump off the plane. I’m in Washington State. Oh and I got to meet Deepak Chopra with one of the really cool men who we went into the VIP seating. And we went and got a book signing and I actually met Deepak Chopra. So I knew something was happening. You know, remember I talk about awareness, paying attention. So here I am right out of cancer surgery and learning to use my voice and my lower lip quivering and no income whatsoever. And then flying to Rhode Island to meet this woman who had a program called Talk to Profit. So when I was sitting in the audience, I just heard loud and clear my guide say, this is your coach for the next three years.

Candice Hozza:

Now she hadn’t even got into any type of sales or program offers, nothing. And I looked to my girlfriend, who I had just met for the first time. We drove all the way out to Rhode Island. So flew in from Washington, came into Pennsylvania and then got in the car with this person I had never met. Mary Beth. Hi, Mary Beth. And we drive all the way to Rhode Island and I lean into her and I say, “I think I’m going to hire her for a coach.” And she goes, “I’m thinking about it too.” So we kind of giggled with each other because neither of us even had an expectation. We just kind of wanted to see what this woman, Jeannie Spyrow was all about. And I’m going to bring Jeannie on so she can tell you a story too. And so I just had it in my head.

Candice Hozza:

I just wanted to meet this woman. And so there was a champagne toast evening and it was very elegant. So we go to this event and I was a woman on a mission I wanted to meet Jeanie and why I wanted her to be my coach is there was something really clean, crisp, and clear. The same way that I had noticed with Nicole’s presentation, I could see this woman just had a lot of focus and I had no clue. I had hired a coach before and she was lovely, but I had no clue about what language to use and I could not get myself there, but I knew that this woman, Jeannie Spyrow, she was going to be able to get my voice into the world. And so back to the champagne cocktail. So we were having cocktail hour. I was a woman on a mission and I just gently touched her on her shoulder.

Candice Hozza:

And her back was facing me. And I remember when she spun around, I saw the most piercing blue eyes and it looked like, honestly, it just looked like she was an angel in her eyes. And it really kind of took me off guard because she had a very corporate type personality when she was on stage. And I’m not going to say anything more about our meeting today with this, because I’d love for her to be a part of this journey of telling you about me hiring her as a coach. So that’s why I’m even calling this podcast The Intuitive Business, because with my awareness of how things were unfolding in life, I just kept saying yes to myself, even though I didn’t know how I was going to move forward. I somehow trusted that everything was going to turn out.

Candice Hozza:

But I wanted to call myself out today after listening to your business has a voice. I literally was stock for an example of my own stuckness. And because I didn’t put myself in the mix of being stuck, how could anybody really work with me unless they knew that I had some major experience being stuck. And I did.

Candice Hozza:

When I leaned into my fear, which was like, how am I going to get the money? How am I going to make people even understand what the Akashic records are, let alone trust in this process to heal and to be able to step into their full power. I still trust that all of this is going to be in alignment now, even though I still don’t know. I don’t know what tomorrow’s going to bring in this business, but I can tell you one thing, I’m putting my heart out there to help people to heal and that is my gift to the world. I used to say I help people to align to their heart centered mission, but I really think what I do now is even deeper than that.

Candice Hozza:

I believe I help people to align to their legacy, their highest and best self and bring their highest and best self with their skills, their abilities, and their talents to those that are praying for it. So you all have a great evening. I had to pop back on to call myself out this evening because I didn’t like that when I listened to the podcast, I liked when I was talking about with alignment and I think that was great. And I hope I conveyed what you needed to hear. And I hope that that triggered something inside of you. But if you know that something’s just off, you don’t have to build a new mountain. Most business owners are exhausted with reformulating their business. What if it’s a tweak? What if it’s as simple as turning an hourglass upside down and with that one clear insight from your Akashic records or from you paying attention to what you see in the universe that meeting, accidental, coincidental meeting with Deepak Chopra.

Candice Hozza:

I knew that something was in alignment for me to take an action about the spiritual side of myself and my personal gifts. So what’s it going to be for you today? Well, coincidence is going to happen. That’s going to give you an awareness to pivot, to profit. And I don’t mean just money. I mean your legacy, that thing that you have to offer this world.

Candice Hozza:

You guys have a great day. I’m sending you so much love and light. See you soon or talk to you soon.

Candice Hozza:

Thank you for tuning into this episode. I hope that you feel more connected to your power within, and that you take action from the guidance here today. For more information, please head to Candicehozza.com, where you will find more resources to help you and your business grow to the next level.